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This quote, by Louisa May Alcott, was the inspiration for my watercolor on a small, wooden box which I’m using to hold costume jewelry**.

“I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.”

I am learning how to sail my ship.

During the past 5 years since my husband’s death, (and 3 days ago I marked the 5th anniversary of that day), I have managed to move out of the house where we lived for almost 30 years, and raised our children, move into a new apartment, buy a car by myself, travel by myself, learn how to tolerate eating dinner by myself, go to the theater by myself, and have some confidence in the merits of my own decisions.  Some of these have felt like major achievements; all were unsettling to accomplish.

After more than 4 decades of marriage, when not being in touch with my husband for more than a few hours made each of us feel the other’s absence, being on my own was challenging, sometimes frightening, and always eerie.

I am in a new land, learning how to be brave and how to sail my ship.

**The Greeks, during the Classical period, made boxes, called pyxides, usually cylindrical, to hold small personal objects.  My little box was inspired by these as well.

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